Girl seeks her Ferry Good Samaritan

girl seeks her ferry good samaritan

A young, local woman has issued a heartfelt plea to help trace a man who has acted as a Good Samaritan to her on numerous desolate late night journey’s on the Gosport Ferry.
“A man who didn’t even want a thankyou for the stuff he helped me through. He may see it as just a small thing, but his words have stuck with me for almost a year now,” Ciara writes on her blog.
Ciara set-up the blog, written under the pen-name Kiwi Can Cope, to help her deal with her mental health issues. The entry, posted on 20th April, reads:
A Picture Is Worth a Thousand Words
After being awake all night watching stupid videos on YouTube and crying with laughter at memes on my news feed, I thought I’d go through my old photos and see if there were any hidden treasures I hadn’t seen in a while… (I usually find drunken photos of my friend’s boobs on my phone – standard)!
I got back to November (this is about 1,700 photos into my camera reel) and came across a photo I had never seen before. I remember it being taken, I also remember the guilt that consumed me right after.
You’re probably thinking it’s a bad photo with bad connotations. Surprisingly though, it isn’t. It’s of two people stood next to each other smiling. To most people, the photo wouldn’t bring up any immediate negative feelings… but the second I saw it I had what felt like a tidal wave of culpability crash into me.
Over the last 3 years, I have tried to commit suicide off of the ‘Faithful Servant’ about 4 or 5 times. I’ve had about 10 people all together chip in to save my life each time. Including the man I only know as the ‘ferry guy’.
I wish I knew his name so I could write him a letter thanking him for all the times he’s hauled me back from the edge of the boat kicking and screaming. For talking to me when I was in the depths of darkness. For assuring I have someone with me on the ferry whenever I were to get on it.
But above all.
For stopping me one night and saying to me “How are you doing? You look so much healthier and happier now… it’s nice to see”.
A man who didn’t even want a thankyou for the stuff he helped me through. He may see it as just a small thing, but his words have stuck with me for almost a year now.
It’s been almost a year since my last ever attempt at suicide. It was the first time I realised that life isn’t worth giving up on. That I deserve to be here, that no thoughts will ever detract from my true worth.
I need to let this man know how incredible he is and how much I appreciate what he said and did for me when he didn’t have to.
Never underestimate the kindness of strangers because one day, one might save your life.
If Kiwi can cope, so can you.
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