Tragic Loss: Dad of Three Takes Own Life at 34
My eldest son Phillip died by suicide on Monday, 18th March 2019. He was just 34 years old.
For over six years, he was a devoted single dad to his three young kids aged 12, 10, and just seven.
The Hidden Struggle Behind Closed Doors
Phillip showed signs of deep depression — low mood, drinking, sleepless nights — but he hid it well. None of us realised how badly he was suffering until it was too late.
After his death, we discovered he had bought the means to end his life as easily as buying anything online. His suicide note on the PC said he felt he was failing his children and hurting those around him. He wrote, with him gone, life would be better for everyone.
“He was wrong. We were all so proud of him — a young lad taking full custody of three kids, the youngest only seven months old,”
Final Moments and Heartbreak
The day he died, Phillip dropped his children at school, then argued with his ex and her family. He drove just five minutes away, pulled off the road, and posted a heartbreaking status on Facebook at 10:45am. Minutes later, at 10:53am, he shared a photo of himself crying on WhatsApp.
The police told us it was quick and painless when they knocked on our door at 1pm. Just like that, a beautiful life was snuffed out. Phillip lost his battle with his demons that day.
His death has ripped a massive hole in the hearts of his three brothers and two sisters. The pain is indescribable. My soul is shattered.
A Mother’s Plea: Don’t Suffer in Silence
I refuse to let Phillip’s death be in vain. If you’re feeling like he did that morning, please, reach out. Talk to someone — even a stranger. Death is NOT the answer, no matter how dark it feels. Your life matters. You matter to people.
From the heart of a grieving mother: please get help.
UK Helplines and Support
- Samaritans: Call 116 123 or email 123
- Childline – Under 19s: Call 0800 1111 (does not show on phone bill)
- The Silver Line – Older People: Call 0800 4 70 80 90
Or join this supportive community to share your feelings: Facebook Support Group
How To Get Help Now
- Talk to family or friends about how you feel — they can support you and help keep you safe.
- There’s no wrong way to start the conversation — just start it.
- If you can’t talk to someone you know, call your GP for an emergency appointment or NHS 111 out of hours.
Tips To Cope Right Now
- Don’t dwell on the future — focus on getting through today.
- Avoid drugs and alcohol.
- Find a safe place, like a friend’s house.
- Be around other people.
- Do something you enjoy, like spending time with a pet.
Don’t suffer in silence — it’s OK not to be OK.
